Love is a game that really hard to play. Just like Rubiks.At the very first time you buy this toy, everything seems perfect. Each collors have their own place. But to playing it, you have to spin, twist and displacing those small squares until all the collors are mixing each other. And now the game is about to start. You have to be very patient and persistence to mix and match the collors until it came to the same in every side.

These are the things that keep linger on my mind. Some feelings that constantly squeezing my emotion from a night back to another nights, behind my tinny blanket in a lowered temperature room. Sometimes rain in the middle of my sleep waking me up and gets me lost deeper than ever, surrounded by fears, confusion, loneliness, and a bit of serenity, questioning about something that i always know that would have no ends.

Many plans i had arranged. But not all of those things has came into a realization.

Apa kabar Bloggie? I know i abandoned you for a bit while, tapi bukan bermaksud melupakan sih. Life has it special way to make me rethinking all over again when i’m about to start recording my life journey. Intinya, gue selalu aja mentok karena males, ada kerjaan or anything elses.

Phew! Long time no see! ahaha…. I’m doin just fine, in fact great! because my novel has an extreme progress! dua minggu ini aku berhasil menambah seratus halaman.. dan kayaknya april ini bener2 bakal beres.. Semoga semangat ini terus menyala. Amen.

Meskipun kebahagiaan datang dari dalam diri kita sendiri, dan dari bagaimana kita mengatur hati kita, tapi bagaimanapun kita memerlukan orang lain untuk membantu kita mengeluarkannya. Seseorang yang konsisten, fokus tulus dan tau alasan yang kuat kenapa kita pantas untuk merasa bahagia.

Still. in an underdog circumstance of my life. This is the third month, March… of my lousy days. Well, i’m still keeping up my life as normal as i can, dan berusaha untuk tidak menjadi orang lain.

Just, wow. Itu kalimat yang bisa menggambarkan bagaimana fase kehidupan gue saat ini. Bukan menyedihkan, cuman challanging. Dan gue terpacu untuk keluar jadi pemenang.